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Sunday, September 27, 2009

Sibling feud + my life

Sibling feud:
I always though that such things only happen to certain people and TV series but... what to say.. it happen to me too so... (=.=) I guess it happen to everyone ...
I guess my family OK, average family, my parents have 3kid, my elder bro, me and my younger bro.. Everyone in the family knows my elder bro hates me, and man.. I mean hate.. We don't talk, in his eye I'm invisible, if I try to talk to him, he will talk to other people totally ignoring me, I try lots of time to speak to him and try my best to pleased him but it never work, he told everyone that I'm a bad person, even to his wife and my younger brother and my parents of cause, but eventually time goes by and everyone knows that I'm not a bad person after all, just a normal person who try to survive this world, a person who try to be happy always..
I always wonder.. how could one person hate another person so much? (+.<) but yup, my elder bro did it, he hate his little sister so much, and it bothers the family so much because of his hate that I think its best for me to move out of the house so it won't hurt my parents feeling and yet after moving out for more than 3year he still hates me and never wanted to talk to me, I can't think of any reason why the hate? because of money? He already took my share, what more does he want's from me? He has everything, even things that belong to me but I never complain because I love my family and that includes him..
Years ago, I remember he ask me to sign some papers in the middle of the night and say's its for auditing, he look nervous and but explain it for urgent audit, he says tomorrow need to send to audit firm and ask me to sign immediately and believing him I sign it, he never say anything from then on... 1 year later, I was going tru some file because it was a mess in the office and I found some file containing papers that I sign and I was shock... he lied to me... yup my bro lie to me, he told me back then it was for auditing use but in some of the document that I found... it written there, I gave up my share and pass it under to his name and with immediate effect and with my signature on it, but I never sign such things, immediately I knew, it was that night that he ask me to sign the papers, he lie to me because he look nervous that day, but I trust him, I never knew he would do such a thing, I'm speechless, if he wanted the company so much he could have talk to me, it's our parents company and the share were divided equally and god my parents are still alive and god why did he did it? I would have give it to him if he talk to me because I'm not interested in my family business anyway... we could have work something out.. I can't believe it and don't know why he lie to me and hate me so much..
I silently and never mention anything to my parents and hope that as long as our family are happy together its OK for me to give up something but I was totally wrong, he still hates me and he's controlling the family now, my mom complain a lot to me but every time I ask her, what's she gonna do? She keep quite.. I know she love my elder bro, so much that she willing to let go of her only daughter, it hurt in my bone and in my head, but I'm fine, because even if I cry, even if I fight, there wont be any changes because my mom would still love him and the world would still spin and nothing would ever change... and this is life and life's goes on.. so.. life's goes on..
My family says the most hurtful words, I guess my elder bro and my mom says the most hurtful words but they are the most influence member in my family, my mom and bro are so negative, my dad he seldom says anything, my younger bro, poor thing cause always get scolded by my elder bro and mom, so I'm trying to learn the opposite of them after all that I have suffer, because I wanna live happily, because I don't wanna live in hate cause I will die in hate and I just wanna live.. so whatever.. I just wanna live..
My life:
I just wanna live happily and positively
I will make my own money
I will have my own dream
I will be happy
To my elder bro, I don't know why you hate me so much and I can't always care if you hate me or not like I use to, because my life have to go on and because I love my family so if you think its best to hate me so be it, as long as you are happy, whatever... you always have your reason to hate me and if anyone ask you, you would be happy to tell them hundred to thousand of reason why you hate me and it makes everyone else don't like me because of your words and I'm always sad because of your words, but whatever, because in life I can't pleased everyone and I have my own road to walk and I don't wanna look back as life's goes on and because in this life I only have this family so no matter what you do and say to me, I'm gonna say, yes I love my family... that's it, and one day, maybe I'm gonna get married and have my own family and I will pass all the positive and love to all my family, unlike you, I guess you only can pass hate to your family... ..
so if this is what you wanted so be it.... I have nothing else to say...



1 comment:

Chester Lim said...

oh...i support you Mimmy Lee! :) don't ever live in hate!

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